Study for Psychology or write a blog....

16 things you may or may not know about me

1. I am left handed.  Also right brained.  All the left-y stereo types, yeah I fit them

2. I like to be the best at everything.  This is a terrible personality flaw i feel, mostly because if I don't think I can be the best, then I won't even try.  Its not so much that I get really competitive and mean when I'm not good, its more that i give up...yeah

3. I don't like little kids...ok not to the point where I don't want any, but seriously I don't understand how people could want to teach them for the rest of their lives...it impresses me...a lot.

4. There is a very special place in my heart for people with special needs.  I love to work with them, and talk to them, and hang out with them.  If I could do something else with my life and teach theatre, I would teach special ed. 

5.  I am ridiculously afraid of spiders.  Not just the "O no, a spider," no. like freak out afriad of them, and not just real ones...fake ones scare me ALOT too...want to be mean, thats the way to go

6.  I am terrible at drawing....its really sad...

7. I am the oldest of 4...also the smallest of them...irony? I think so

8. I have wrecked my car twice, and the second time she was about 100 dollars off from being totaled...both were my fault, and the second involved three cars....awesome

9. Until my senior year in high school, since about the 5th grade, I wanted to go into medicine, cardiology to be exact...God works in some pretty cool ways

10. I am at a point in my life, where if I single for the rest of my life, I am 100% ok with that...I don't know that it will happen, but if thats the case, then cool

11. I want to do the peace corps when i graduate college.  

12. I want to open my own youth theatre company after I teach for a few years.  I feel like theatre is something that is really really important, and something that is really great for kids, especially those from low income families.  I want to do free after school programs, and show kids, families, and the community what a little acting can do for the world

13.  I also want to work with inner city communities for the rest of my life.  Kids in these areas deserve just as much of a good education as kids from places with insane amounts of money, and it isn't fair that they don't get it...this would also be known as my soap box...

14.  I love to ski.  I love it I love it I love it....

15. I love to clean.  I am an emotional cleaner, which is convenient sometimes.  I also love to clean for people.  I love to help people out that way.  Not because i want them to like me, or because I think it will make me look better, just because I like to do it :-) (this is an open invitation fyi)

16.  I love Jesus.

Rose Colored Glasses

Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'

Mattew 25:40

So, as a Christian, I talk a lot about living for and like Christ...cause its kinda that point I guess?? I mean even the word Christian mean little Christ.  So thats what we try to do.  The goal would be that every action, every thought, every moment of our lives is aimed at  Christ, and for his purpose....so heres what I've been learning about that :-)

Relationships define our lives it seems.  So how do we reflect and reach for Christ in our relationships.  We all know we are called to love people, and to put others above ourselves.  Ok, but really though what does look like??

heres some stuff from my journal a few days ago

"...its like I work so hard to love people, and they won't return it...I guess thats not really why I should love people, though, is it?  I should love them because that is how Christ loves me-even when I don't love Him back, and even when I am a total idiot, selfish and mean, he loves me back.  I should love his people, simply because he loves me.  Even Satan can love his friends, the people who love him back.  I am called to love all his people, no matter how they feel about me, or are rue to me or use me, or have too high expectations of me.  I have to love them back.  We are called to live in love"

Love for people isn't about how they feel about us, and as much as I try to say, "O I'm not doing to get them to love me back," it hurts when they don't because I feel like I have put a lot into the relationship, but that isn't what love is about.  Loving people is about Christ, and His love for us.  That change in perspective makes all the difference in the way we treat people, and how we react to the way they treat us.  We are called to love, simply and ONLY because He first loved us.  His love is all we need in return.