Tuesday, April 21, 2009

trust

This past week has been very interesting in the way of relationships.  I am still learning how to create good relationships, and how to understand that those relationships shouldn't be "what's in it for me."  I wish that one day i will fully understand this, but understanding that my existence is human.
Its interesting though how my feelings on the matters seemed to shift over the past few days.  I think this came with my SLOW willingness to share my feelings with others, which is difficult for me.  I have this idea that sharing with people how I feel when those feelings are messy and unorganized and stupid.  But how can I expect love and understanding and real relationships if i am unwilling to share anything that doesn't sound nice.  I am slowly learning that sharing, being open, trusting is how you build relationships.  I have to be willing to open up, be vulnerable to love people fully.  I have to be willing to trust to have people trust me.  To build real relationships 

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Flikr

I added some new pictures.....
http://www.flickr.com/photos/beautyinthedetail/ 
enjoy

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

50 things I've never been asked

1. What color is your toothbrush?
blue

2. Name one person who made you smile today:
Hannah, Katie, Brittany.  Rachel. JESUS I know it only said one...

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning:
sleeping 

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
watching a scene in my directing class

5. What is your favorite candy bar?
butterfinger or snickers

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
hahahah NO...i do not believe in the objectification of women's bodies

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
when are those due?

8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
sweet cream with strawberries and yellow cake mixed in 

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
i'm drinking a coke right now

10. Do you like your wallet?
so much...thank you urban outfitters

11. What was the last thing you ate?
sugar cookies, as a present to myself for not dying, and making it to all my classes today

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
no, but i did by the expansion pack to settlers of catan

13. The last sporting event you watched?
either professional soccer or the final four in the NCAA tournament i can't remember 

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
butter...NO KETTLE CORN! 

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message too?
Johnny Hawley 

16. Ever go camping?
yes, but i want to do it more...getting better, doing, backpacking is my new goal

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
no

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
yep :-)

19. Do you have a tan?
i'm working on my fake tan 

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
yep 

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
sometimes

22. What did your last text message say?
your welcome i love you 

23. What are you doing tomorrow?
class from 930 to 5, dinner from 5-630 with a friend, performance until 10

24. WHERE IS 24?!?
monday at 9? 

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
other computers

26. What color is your watch?
i don't have a watch i prefer not to know what time it is thanks

27. What do you think of when you hear the word Australia?
the film and its awesome costumes 

28. What is your birthstone?
amethyst...also my favorite color...convenient 

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
drive through...i usually don't get fast food unless i'm in a hurry 

30. What is your favorite number?
i don't know

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
mommy 

32. Any plans today?
performance and pounds of work 

33. How many states have you lived in?
one

34. Biggest annoyance right now?
that everything is due the day after opening night 

35. Last song listened to?
Coldplay, lovers in Japan

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
 i have no desire to

37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
i love to clean why would i do that

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
CHACO's ...or maybe my keds

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
sometimes.  its something i struggle with 

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
how would i know that 

41. Do you love anyone?
many people...perhaps just people in general

42. Do any of your friends have children?
eventually i hope to

43. What do you usually do during the day?
hit snooze on my alarm...i would like to tell you it was thank Jesus for another beautiful day, and sometimes it is....

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
God's creation is not scewed enough to hate

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
ummm...probably

46. What color is your car?
forest green 

47. Do you like cats?
yes, i'm not sure i prefer them to dogs however 

48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
talking to him

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
yep, however i think i prefer busch gardens 

50. How did you get your worst scar?
i was playing chase with a first grader at work and tripped and ripped open my knee...almost 2 years ago....