Tuesday, April 21, 2009

trust

This past week has been very interesting in the way of relationships.  I am still learning how to create good relationships, and how to understand that those relationships shouldn't be "what's in it for me."  I wish that one day i will fully understand this, but understanding that my existence is human.
Its interesting though how my feelings on the matters seemed to shift over the past few days.  I think this came with my SLOW willingness to share my feelings with others, which is difficult for me.  I have this idea that sharing with people how I feel when those feelings are messy and unorganized and stupid.  But how can I expect love and understanding and real relationships if i am unwilling to share anything that doesn't sound nice.  I am slowly learning that sharing, being open, trusting is how you build relationships.  I have to be willing to open up, be vulnerable to love people fully.  I have to be willing to trust to have people trust me.  To build real relationships 

1 comment:

T.J. said...

If relationships were not so, I would choose to be a hermit.